I never knew what was crush was until I was in form 1, when a feeling of anxious,bliss and desperation came upon this particular girl. She wasn't the prettiest nor is she the 'happening' one among other girls. However something seem to bond this fond heart towards every little things she does. Those feelings are like, curiousity over her daily routine though it wasn't much extraordinary but it simply makes you eager to know every little things in detail. Moreover streamyx has not existed yet and chatting on the net would be quite an expensive usage so most of the time we will only chat on weekends. Conversation was never dull, she would tell me everything from her childhood secrets till the size of her 'asset', it was simply a mix humour and emotional conversation.

After a certain time of sharing our personal experience and childhood, we decided to meet up at a shopping mall for a 'date', a proper me and her meeting unlike in tuition where we could only see each other's hair from the back. It's not really a date since her sister is gonna accompany us along with a friend of mine who is a year younger than me. Since it was my first date, I seem to be quite speechless and needed her sister to strike up conversation for me and guidance on certain things.

Everything started off well I guess, until that moment when our eyes were aligned with each other and everything turn hay-wire. I could hear my heart beat in an irregular rate and my whole body is signalling red alert that it's gonna experience a major shut down if I don't get my eyes off hers... Consequently it happened, the most embarrasing event of the day, my McDonald Sundae Cone(chocolate) spilled on her shirt.. To make matter worse, she was wearing a white shirt. Her face expression changed and I was constantly apologizing without being able to do anything as the stain was on that unique part of a woman's body. Lucky for me, I had her sister to help me to get her a new shirt to replace that stained shirt from Parkson which I paid for it. A huge relief along with that little pleasure and contentment when everything turns out to be joyous after all. We shared ice cream,watched movie,went shopping for undergarment...
(-_-") Happy day indeed.

Eventually, the process of getting into a relationship did not work out properly due to many arguments and some backstabbing from a classmate of mine who was also into her.. I was a newbie in the game of love and he was the swift 'killer' which we'd described for a person who has every technics to win a girl's heart. It was the most depressing lost but after that very moment I had many intriguing experience about love and flaws every guy make in order to get a girl's attention. That 'killer' guy who once an enemy turn out to be my good friend after all, we shared experiences and laughed ourselves out over the mistake we committed.

Love could be hurting at times but when you found love, those past hurting will eventually fade away. You need not find love, let love find you, that is why it's falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall.

Have a nice day =)