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Check out this post by Marina Mahathir on social business(microcredit) Prof Dr Mohammad Yunus, the founder of Grameen Bank @ 2006 Nobel Peace Price laureate.

Happy 50th Anniversary Malaysia!!! MERDEKA!
My merdeka eve wasn't a blast unlike others who spent theirs in Cyberjaya, Dataran merdeka, etc. spectating the fireworks events. So merdeka celebration in Ashley's house again like last year. Gulping beer and 'updating' myself on what is happening.

Discovery of the Day : Everyone is learning how to shuffle and Zhi Yen has talent in doing it, learning very quickly and all eyes were on him.. Cheerz*

Artist: Chris Daughtry
Title: Over You
Album: Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through

Did I really managed to get over 'everything'??
Still doubtful....

My Past Failed Me

"Where were you when I needed the most??"
The moment when I am in excruciating pain and needed someone to stand by my side to guide me through this bumpy path of life.

Every night I would reminisce about the past over what I have done,
my intolerant attitude, my ignorance,my insensitivity, my ego, my pride,my past failures and the incompassionate side that made me lose faith over love or is it just myself. *shrugs*

It has been a year ever since I withdrawn myself from this crappy game called love and now those deep burried feelings seem to be haunting me once again(Flirting doesn't count). Trust me, those sort of feeling is never good, your mind wonders as in you're on crackz and what is worst is that you cannot seem to concentrate on what you're doing. Everything have been done to refrain myself from getting drift away over foolish love as it was in the past. Sleeping, cigarettes, alcohol, television, basketball, books, and friends. None seems to work...

I am clumsily dancing away this fear and whats worse is that I am stumbling closer to you that I could not let go. I guess Rick Price's lyrics distinctively describe how I feel.. Enough said.

Flipping and kicking pillows to the floor,
rolling from side to side,
placing comforter over my head,
Can't sleep or can't forget??

Results are out with me getting another chance to resit all three subjects which starts at Nov 7 up to Nov 22. 15 days and 11 papers to sit. Cool eh~.. 16 days to A2 Trial and 80+ days to A2 and AS... Don't try it out, it's creepy and crappy.. I can feel the detachment in my brain along with those busy body auntie who suddenly seem so 'concern' about you when the result is out... *Pffff* Burst me..

Anyway,I Just Hope the 'Miracle' Plan works... =)
Perhaps this might be a start of something new or a turning path for me??? who knows... *shrugs*
As I always say, It's the journey that matters NOT the destination... SO lets enjoy for the moment.

"If life were predictable it would cease to be life, and be without flavor." -Eleanor Roosevelt-

p/s: "hey up there!!! U sent me a weird guardian angel... Can I hv a change???"

Artist: Lifehouse
Title: Fool
Album: Blyss-diff's Lucky Day [1996]

Seems my own arrogance has knocked me off my feet again,
when you know I'm crawling to you as fast as I can
first teach me to walk
and then I'll learn to dance for you like an
honest clumsy clown
tripping along the way

cause I am reaching for you
but my arms aren't long enough
and I am running to you
if I could go a little faster
and I am crying to you
but I can't hear my own voice
and I am waiting for you
and trying not to fall asleep now

cause I'm clumsily dancing away this fear
I'm stumbling closer to you and I am
tumbling over my pride
I will be a fool for you

what are you thinking as you look down on me are you
frustrated with my inconsistency
or intrigued that I can find the will to get back up or
maybe all of this is simply amusing

cause I'm reaching for you
but my arms aren't long enough
and I'm running to you
if I could go a little faster
and I'm crying to you
but I can't hear my own voice
I am waiting for you
and trying not to fall asleep now

Cause I'm clumsily dancing away this fear
I'm stumbling closer to you and I am
tumbling over my pride
I will be a fool for you
and I'm clumsily dancing away this fear
I'm stumbling closer to you and I am
tumbling over my pride
I will be a fool for you

and I'm clumsily dancing away this fear
I'm stumbling closer to you and I am
tumbling over my pride
I will be a fool for you.

Masturbation.

"A man can learn a lot about being a better lover through masturbation -- even if he has a regular partner," says Peter Sandor Gardos, Ph.D., a San Francisco clinical sexologist. "One of men's biggest concerns during sex is that they'll come too soon. Regular masturbation is the perfect way to learn to recognize the signs that you're getting close to orgasm." Here's how to get the most out of Solo Orgasm 101.

Slow Down.
"The fear of being found out motivates boys to learn to masturbate to orgasm as quickly as possible," says Patricia Love, Ed.D., a marriage and family therapist in Houston and author of Hot Monogamy. The trouble is, these quickies condition your sexual responses in such a way that you end up climaxing much faster than you'd like to with a partner. An occasional lightning orgasm is okay, but try to set aside some time when you can relax and masturbate for 20 minutes or so.

Lighten Up.
Another danger of high-speed wanking is that a jackhammer stroke creates sensations that can't be reproduced when you're not the only one in the room. "Some men get so used to the hard, fast strokes that they have trouble climaxing with a partner," says Barbara Keesling, Ph.D., a sex therapist and author of Super Sexual Orgasm. To master a new stroke, try switching hands, which will make you very conscious of every move you make and defeat any "automatic" movements.

6 Steps To Beat Premature Ejacuation.

Master masturbation.
Masturbate with a woman's orgasm in mind, not your own. In other words, take your time: Work up to 15 minutes. Bring yourself close to the point of no return, but don't let yourself ejaculate until time is up.

Squeeze.
If you're overheating during masturbation or sex, stop and squeeze right below the head of your penis. Apply firm pressure with your thumb and forefinger and focus the pressure on the urethra--the tube running along the underside of the penis. The squeeze technique, developed by those icons of sex therapy, Masters and Johnson, pushes blood out of the penis and momentarily decreases sexual tension and represses the ejaculatory response.

Pinpoint ejaculatory inevitability.
Masters and Johnson broke the process of sexual response into four phases: excitement, plateau, orgasm, and resolution. It's the plateau and orgasm phases we're most concerned with, as most men crash through the former, straight into the latter. The trick is to slow down and recognize that there's a spectrum of feelings throughout the process of sexual response and to recognize your own point of ejaculatory inevitability. Rate your sexual excitement on a scale of 1 to 10. Try keeping yourself at 7.

Sexercise.Do your Kegels.
A Kegel is an exercise that helps tighten the pubococcygeal (PC) muscles of the pelvic floor. Both men and women have them, and you can become familiar with the muscle group by cutting off the flow of urine and then starting and stopping it repeatedly. (Begin with a full bladder.) Once you have the exercise down, practice your Kegels anywhere: at your desk, behind the wheel. Tighten your PC muscles and hold for a count of 10, then release. Practice in sets of 10. Stronger PC muscles will help you exercise ejaculatory control when you approach the point of inevitability.

Press, don't thrust.
Tease her, taunt her: Press the head of your penis into her clitoral head. Linger in her vaginal entrance, where the most sensitive nerve endings are. When you do have intercourse, focus on small, shallow movements that penetrate the first 2 to 3 inches of her vaginal canal. Press your penis against her G-spot. You'll last longer if you're not thrusting vigorously.

Show a little courtesy.
Ladies first, gentlemen--and I'm talking about more than just holding the door open. Keep your woman happy. Women have an innate capacity to experience multiple orgasms. When you help her to her first one, it relieves you of some of the pressure to please and the psychological anxiety that feeds into PE. Use your fingers; use your mouth.